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February 2021

Why Indie / Alternative isn’t cool anymore

When I lived in Seattle (2000 – 2005), I was a huge fan of indie. Non-mainstream music by obscure bands was obviously better than the radio / MTV. Independent films were interesting and exciting. Despite being a married guy working in business, I did my best to take part in the hipster scene. I went to the concerts, the clubs, and at times even dressed the part. The pic is from 2001 (you should have seen my shoes).


Why was I attracted to Indie / Alternative? Because it was all about breaking free from the norm, challenging the mainstream narrative in the corporate media, you know…sticking it to the man! That’s why it was all so cool! Hipsters / indie fans saw themselves as open-minded, edgy, and smarter than regular people. Our tastes were superior across the board (or so we thought).

When the Coronavirus “pandemic” hit, whatever “indie cool” that remained instantly evaporated. There was no questioning the mainstream narrative (not even a little). Instantly, all the oh-so-cool indie musicians, DJ’s, podcasters, and everyone fell into line. All the prominent “hipsters” lectured us to stay at home. Wear masks. No more concerts or events. In a flash, the entire movement was shattered by fake news headlines and fear of catching a cold.

When I look back on it, I realize Indie / Alternative was never very cool. The people were snobs. Judgmental jerks. Self-absorbed. Fake intellectuals. Wanna-be rebels. It was only ever about image. Much of the music was unlistenable, many of the movie narratives shallow and pointless.

Music should be beautiful. Movies should be inspiring and uplifting. People should be nice. A real movement would be one based on real values such as love, true freedom, truth and honesty. Indie / Alternative is still better than the purely Satanic, ugly shit we see in the mainstream—but not much better. Time for a total refresh, which is coming, and not a moment too soon.

Only Heaven exists now

"Earth is being born again in new perspective. Night has gone, and we have come together in the light.

From here we give salvation to the world, for it is here salvation was received. The song of our rejoicing is the call to all the world that freedom is returned, that time is almost over, and God’s Son has but an instant more to wait until his Father is remembered, dreams are done, eternity has shined away the world, and only Heaven now exists at all."

-A Course in Miracles


A decentralized economy for the awakened world (Feb. 25th, 2021 | Abscondo Podcast #100)

As the good guys win and a new world order emerges, we need new systems and technologies to support our new way of life. Today I discuss the "I am" decentralized / quantum communications platform, currency, and social connecter. This concept is fully-developed and I am open to working with anyone who feels inspired.

You can also listen to the audio only version of the podcast here:

Abscondo Podcast 100


Purification is the decision to align your beliefs with higher truths

It is a choice to disassociate from the ego. A decision to value the miracle of the now, to practice non-resistance to what is, and to always respond to everyone and everything lovingly.

Higher truth is grasped in the form of various concepts and words, yet it is one whole. If you understand one piece of it (e.g., forgiveness), you have accessed the whole. This whole is nothing other than perfect knowledge, and perfect knowledge is superior to mere perception. It is also far superior to so-called rationality (which does not even exist).

Higher truth includes some of the following spiritual beliefs:

  • I believe that I am not my mind; rather, that my true identity is formless consciousness (or awareness, love, presence…these are all different words that mean the same thing and the words do not matter).
  • I do not believe in the reality of fear because I know that I am eternally invulnerable beyond form.
  • I believe that I am perfectly complete now, in this eternal, ongoing present moment, and am waiting for no future destination of salvation or heaven. The entire reality exists now and there is no other time than now.
  • I believe that the thought system of love is perfect and wholly true. Sin is where love is not. Anything done in love is done correctly. One need only learn what love truly is and what love truly does. There are books about it. I wrote a free eBook that you may enjoy on this topic, and it is called Belove: How to End Pain by Escaping Your Ego.
  • As love, we believe not in manipulation or attack; rather, in the thought system that is effortlessly giving, creating, accepting, open, free, fearless, joyful, blissful, and capable of solving every problem because the only problem is lack of love.

Purified, we feel the perfect energy flow from within and life is instantly and constantly perfect. From this true belief system, our decisions are very different. We continue tomorrow and each day after that.


A decision is a conclusion based on everything you believe. It is the outcome of belief. (A Course in Miracles)

“No belief is neutral. Every one has the power to dictate each decision you make.”

I am neither rational nor unbiased. Each of my actions, behaviors, and decisions are an outcome of my beliefs—and no belief is neutral. Only beliefs have the power to lift us from confusion, chaos, suffering, and crisis—but only when those beliefs are true.

False beliefs seem to promise comfort and end confusion, but only for a time. When our actions, behaviors, and decisions are based upon false beliefs, reality will come around to make the correction.

This correction is what is experienced as suffering. If correction is not made as a result of suffering, crisis will make sure that it is. I explain this concept in detail in my free eBook The Switch.


Only you can give yourself permission to be that amazing, wonderful version of you

What is it that prevents you from being that fun, joyful, inspired version of you? How long has it been since you had that feeling of excitement inside? Since you allowed yourself to dream? Since you lived a dream or experienced a fantasy?

The only reason we fall short of being the best possible version of ourselves is that we give power to external voices and forces. We are made afraid by the media, the financial system, and the healthcare system. We are falsely made into criminals by a corrupt government. We are made to feel guilty by environmentalists, social justice advocates, and others. We are forced to conform and act normal at work and at school.

In our personal lives, our romantic partners, family, and friends want us to say, do, and be as they say. The lesson is always that we are wrong, we are flawed, we are not enough of this or too much of that.

When you give these external voices power, then you doubt, ignore, and even lose your inner voice. Your inner voice is your compass. Most people are lost because they believe that their own compass is bad. When you lose faith in your inner voice, you become confused, withdrawn, cynical, sarcastic, angry, fearful, stress out, and life becomes a miserable experience.

No one is ever going to give you permission to follow your inner compass. Only you have that power. So what are you good at? What is beautiful about who you are or what you create? What interesting perspectives have you learned through your unique life experiences? What unique skills have you acquired? What excites you? When were you most happy? What do you dream of? Do you remember that you are innocent, that you are good and lovable? This is your truth. Own it and live it.

I go by the name “Abscondo” because, to me, to abscond means to withdraw my faith and attention from the harmful external voices, from the lost and lonely people. It means to ignore all the times I have been disappointed by lack of love in people. It means to go within and to connect with the real me—the one who loves purely, creates beautiful music, creates value through my work, does everything I have ever felt inspired to do, and who is completely open, transparent, and honest about everything.

Here I feel wonderful and life is amazing. Here I am complete, joyful, and am as enthusiastic as a child—no matter what any of the external voices are saying. We continue tomorrow and each day after that.


Life is experienced beyond the mind

So much goes on in our heads, but nothing real can be experienced in thought.

Notice how everything real, beautiful, and enjoyable happens during the gaps between thoughts. We come alive when the analysis, the naming, and the judging of good and bad stops. This seeing with true vision is available to everyone through the perspective of consciousness or "I am". Focused attention with a still mind.

The thoughts, analysis, and stories of the mind are useful at times. The mind is a useful tool, but life is experienced when attention is shifted away from thought. This is learned through spiritually-alive teachings and through meditation. We continue tomorrow and each day after that.


Lack of love in this world is the only problem

Ignorant of love, humans are a cancer on the planet. We destroy. We use up. We suffer.

Enough. The only priority in this life is that we learn to love. In love we heal, we create, we provide, and we enjoy.

Most people do not know what love is. Love’s energy and wisdom has been lost in this world. We have it upside-down. Everything about life that doesn’t matter has been made to matter; yet it still doesn’t matter because love is still all that matters.

Love is not what you find or get from anyone, it is what you are. Love is not a feeling or an arrangement, it is a way of being in truth.

Forgive yourself. Forgive and accept it all. There is nothing wrong with you and there never has been. There is nothing you need to become other than what you are: love. Be that.

Love does not come to you; rather, it comes from within you. Let go of all that is blocking the love flowing from within. This is success. Furthermore, horrific revelations are about emerge that will require us all to see the world from the perspective of love, if only to maintain sanity in the face of evil. We want only love. We use it to transform darkness. We continue tomorrow and each day after that.



Something about being human is this fundamental hunger and drive toward exploration. Life without newness feels dull and monotonous. Newness brings a subtle sense of aliveness, excitement, and passion to the present moment.

Doing is knowing. To know, we must do what excites us—going all the way into wherever it leads, yet without clinging to any of it. We are free to experience it, free to think it, free to say it, free to keep it or let it go. We can embrace new perspectives, new friendships, new music, new routines, new situations, new challenges, new places, new possibilities, new recipes, new things.

Thoughts, rules, or emotions limiting freedom are unnecessary obstacles preventing us from doing what we are here to do. We declare ourselves free and set each other free. We approach the present moment with an open mind, a heart that is alive, and a “yes” always on the tip of our tongues.

Here we are alive in passion, truth, and beauty—but only as long as we remain within the thought system of love. Think and act freely but without love and experience suffering and crisis until you learn the whole lesson. We continue tomorrow and each day after that.