The ego is capable of suspiciousness at best, and viciousness at worst. That is its range. (A Course in Miracles)
Taking the ego seriously is the cause of our problems. The ego is an inherently flawed thought system; whereby its full range varies only between suspiciousness and viciousness. Where is there any possibility here for love, joy, peace, certainty and trust?
The ego is that voice in the head beating you up all the time, causing problems, making you emotional, fearful, willing to hide from reality or to attack. That’s not you, that’s your ego. It merely disguises itself as you by using your human form. Also, when other people act this way, that’s not them. That’s their ego tricking them. All egos share the same dysfunctional and insane thought system. The thought system of perfect love is the anti-ego, but transcendence of ego is never easy.
“The ego is particularly likely to attack you when you react lovingly, because it has evaluated you as unloving and you are going against its judgment. The ego will attack your motives as soon as they become clearly out of accord with its perception of you. This is when it will shift abruptly from suspiciousness to viciousness. Yet it is surely pointless to attack in return.”
“You cannot evaluate an insane belief system from within it. Its range precludes this. You can only go beyond it. Look back from a point where sanity exists and see the contrast.”
To attempt to change anything about your life from within the ego is pointless, impossible, and absolutely will not work. If you want anything about you or your life to change, you must be willing to escape the ego’s grip. The ego is undone when you become perfectly honest, vulnerable, trusting, accepting, open and giving—in other words, loving. Of course, the voice in the head will give you many reasons why you can’t do this. The ego is cunning.