There is one thing holding you back from freedom, and it is fear. More accurately, it is the belief that fear is justified.
You believe that you must conform to the demands of others. You think it inevitable that you are dependent upon a husband, a wife, a life partner, or a parent. You believe that to claim your freedom is to become vulnerable...to risk being left on your own, desperate, helpless, and lacking. This is the message of the world, and it is untrue.
Freedom is the discovery of your true identity and a knowing of your invulnerability. I'm not talking about faith in your invulnerability; rather, a knowing that you are love, you are perfect, you already are everything and you already have everything. Freedom, therefore, requires a conscious awakening, an alignment with that which is real, a detachment from that which is material form and; thus, impermanent and unstable.
You are connected with people who say they love you or care about you...and, in return, they feel justified in controlling you. That isn't love or caring, it is slavery.
There is nothing wrong with you. You are already perfect. You are free to be what you are and to do what you want. The universe has already given you permission to exist in perfect peace and harmony, alone or with anyone you choose to be with, doing or saying whatever comes natural. If someone who you love is jealous or controlling, that is his ego and it is his problem. It is your job to teach him how to cure that jealousy, how to not become overwhelmed by it. If you continue to fear and respect his ego, you make his jealousy real. You enable him to suffer further. But if you love him, then lovingly tell him that you are free...just as he is...and then show him what love is.
Do not let a school tell you that you must get good grades or you will not have a successful life. Do not identity with a job or profession. You want to be successful, and a successful life requires a knowing of your true identity. Do not fear the loss of a friendship or a relationship. If you believe that you need someone else...that means you do not know your true identity. You do not believe in what you are and, therefore, have given away your freedom as though it is worth nothing. In truth, it is worth everything..
Without freedom, your life will never be successful. The universe cannot channel its abundance through you if you allow the egos around you to block the light. You cannot respond to your intuition if you hide it and allow others to attack it. You cannot find peace, love, or health if what you serve is ego. Your true nature is freedom, and this knowledge alone is powerful enough to destroy ego.
Only when you slip outside of ego, you can become free. Only in freedom can you begin to love. Now you will stop sneaking around, stop lying, stop fantasizing, and stop cheating. If you think dishonesty is a form of sensitivity, nothing could be further from the truth. You are, instead, serving an illusion that perpetuates ego-based ignorance and cruelty.
Claim your freedom and let go of all shame and guilt. Your life will be filled with energy. This energy, this love, is life's creative energy. It will flow from you to your partner, to your spouse, to your children, to your dog, and to everyone you come into contact with. Far from lacking; you have just become the source of abundance (rather than a shameful coward waiting for breadcrumbs to drop from the table).
That fear you believe is real...it isn't real. That fear is the tool of those who are trying to control you. A slave cannot be slightly more free. If you allow yourself to be a little bit of a slave, then you are a slave. Freedom is honesty, it is a knowing of what you truly are, an awareness that there is nothing wrong with you. Be love. You are not your thoughts, you are the observer of thoughts. In life and even in death, your soul is eternal and invulnerable. This knowing is freedom.
Claim your freedom now, and refuse to slip back into fear. This requires a daily spiritual practice and meditation. Try it, and you will find out that there is nothing to fear.