The ego is capable of suspiciousness at best, and viciousness at worst. That is its range. (A Course in Miracles)
Taking the ego seriously is the cause of all your problems. The ego is a thought system. If the full range of this thought system only varies between suspiciousness and viciousness, then where is there any possibility for love? Joy? Peace? Certainty and trust? Freedom?
You know that voice in your head beating you up all the time, causing problems, making you emotional, fearful, willing to run off or to attack? That’s not you, that’s your ego. It merely disguises itself as you by using your voice. Also, when other people act this way, that’s not them. That’s their ego tricking them. All egos share the same dysfunctional and insane thought system. Love is the anti-ego.
“The ego is particularly likely to attack you when you react lovingly, because it has evaluated you as unloving and you are going against its judgment. The ego will attack your motives as soon as they become clearly out of accord with its perception of you. This is when it will shift abruptly from suspiciousness to viciousness. Yet it is surely pointless to attack in return.”
“You cannot evaluate an insane belief system from within it. Its range precludes this. You can only go beyond it. Look back from a point where sanity exists and see the contrast.”
To attempt to change anything about your life from within the ego is pointless, impossible, and absolutely will not work. If you want anything about you or your life to change, you must be willing to undo the ego. The ego is undone when you become vulnerable, trusting, loving, accepting, open and giving. Now that voice in your head is telling you all the reasons why you can’t do this. Are you going to let it win again? How long do you want this suffering to last?
We continue tomorrow and each day after that.